my guts
janice jotted on Friday, July 01, 2005 @ 2:28 PM
this blog excites me. cos its shared among my three buddies.
but we must keep this going.
and i believe only eunice can do the maintanence.
shes such a computer addict! :D
anyway, i feel that this blog is gonna be my pouring-out-of-soul place
at least for the time being
reason no.1: not many pple know this blog yet
no.2: i cant do that at my blog. my school frens are reading it
no.3: i can mention God here as much as i want. not that i didnt at my blog though. just that i can do it more often here! :)
no4: my buddies can comment and we can encourage each other plus know more about each other amidst our busy schedules?
........
anyway, i wanna share that im such a idiot yesterday.
peiling asked me whether i would like to go orchard after our last paper yeaterday.
and i absentmindedly say:' no, i cant. cos i havent finish planning for the outreach.'
once that last word came out of my mouth, i practically feel like KILLING MYSELF!
im such an idiot.
here i am, telling my pre-believer fren that the event that she understand to be JUST amzaing race GAME, is actually an event to reach out.
i hope she ll be simple minded as usual not to feel awkward enough.
i mean, if she thinks about it. then she ll understand that theres another agenda behind this event and if im her, i ll most probably feel uncomfortable about it.
one reassuring point is that, she is not as analystic(is there such a word?i think so right...) as i am.
THANK GOD
neverthless, i thank God that she, together with her brother and chinying agreed to come down to play. thank God. thank God.
the only sad thing is, i wished that she wouldnt be leaving early.
i think becky has a point
she said:' why are your frens always leaving early? the concert day, they left early too.'
come to think about it, its true.
the previous otreach, they had to leave immediately(equaivelent to leaving early) to go to city harvest church event at indoor. then again, at indoor they gotta leave early to go home.
wa....!
then this BBQ! i felt so exasperated to the point of despair when i read the sms that the BBQ is comfirmed at peiling's house on the same day!
i was like:' but PEILING! YOU AGREED TO COME THIS EVENT LIKE 1 MONTH AGO! '
thats why i feel that theres like so many things hindering.
Lord, may it be Your will! :)
okok..
i wrote alot.
time to go plan my icebreaker games. :)
GOD BLESS!
