sighh
eunicee jotted on Thursday, October 27, 2005 @ 10:27 PM
i just felt like posting pictures, but not of me of course. i'm starting piano again, and what if i fail again? hmm. yess finally the hols are here. i mean, it's not really holidays for me but still, no going for lectures and tutorials etc. i hope janice's exams end soon so i can go out with her again.
ohwell, days have passed and things change. i guess everyone would say change is inevitable. mmhmm... God please guide me. sighh...
it's the rain, it's the rain and the radio.
eunice*
rolllercoaster.
eunicee jotted on Monday, October 24, 2005 @ 10:23 PM
anything that pulls you away from God isn't good.
becca wants me to blog about yesterday's incident. we baked cake for my mum. the reason why i don't cook is because i most probably spend more time cleaning up than cooking and becca wants me to blog the horrible incidents. firstly, i knocked over four eggs on the floor so they broke and splattered everywhere and we stood laughing. next, i sifted the flour onto the table instead of the bowl so everywhere was FLOURY. oops x_x okay nothing else happened (maybe coz i didn't do anything else). then she brought the cake to my house today for a suprise and my mum found out. anw..HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
today's MoNdAy.
eunice*
acjcopenhouseday.
eunicee jotted on Saturday, October 22, 2005 @ 9:55 PM
acjcopenhouse2005.
went out to jurongpoint with wanwan after that. this is the list of things i saw and i like within that one and a half hours.
1) a white wallet. similar to my current one but i still like white wallets. =)
2) a converse top. black with purple words. nicee!
3) a esprit jacket. it's reddish/maroonish and it's pretty. i likee!
4) spag. black and white.
okay i doubt i'll ever get number three. my mum will never pay for me. anw, my mum's sick so we can't go shopping for today and tmr at least.. it's her birthday on monday..i like the esprit jacket. if you see it, you'll think it's pretty too.
eunice*
the blues.
eunicee jotted on Tuesday, October 18, 2005 @ 7:37 PM
the blues.
the past few days have been depressing ones for a couple of people i know. it's kinda frustrating when you can't control your emotions. you have to control, suppress and even pretend you're fine, which is just horrible. but then again, we grow i suppose.
what i hope for now is, to pass my chem, to feel better, and and and...the list goes on. i hate to fail chem.
sighh. now the sighh is coming uncontrollably again. i think it's the idea of having band after school everyday and the idea of going home after school and the idea of not being able to go out after school that are depresssive. and many ideas of many things too.
may we all feel better soon.
"How vital is it for the Holy Spirit to put oil into the machinery of a Christian worker's life when he or she is trying to pump oil for others? Unless our own machinery is running smoothly people will not believe we have oil for the needs of others. How can we witness to others if it is obvious that our own lives are ineffectual?" -- everyday with Jesus.
eunice*
sticky glue..
eunicee jotted on Monday, October 17, 2005 @ 5:06 PM
emotionally dependent and emotionally attached.
it's so interesting to see how things have changed within one week. it was along that same path that clarice and i were walking as we talked. it was about the same topic, same issue, but yet it's a different story now.
killing the heart was never easy. it never will be...
you're just like an iceblock. maybe with four walls surrounding you. it's you who build up that wall, and don't you dare tear it down.
(i sound like some psychopath =X)
i'm feeling VERY sleepy because i'm listening to eston's "Mozart: Requiem" cd he lent me.
eunice*
love is..
eunicee jotted on Sunday, October 16, 2005 @ 11:48 PM
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."
1 Corinthians 13:4-8a.
catch me vulnerable at these moments.
eunice*
affair
Becky jotted on Saturday, October 15, 2005 @ 6:43 PM
I went to have my dinner wif the cute guy juz now... Juz seeing him eat can make my heart melt... Haha... The funniest thing is that pple thinks that we are having a affair... Then he still continue to joke say dun tell anybody ok? Then my other collgue told me that he jus broke up wif his gf... when i ask him why then he said that he wanted to move on... He said maybe he will like the person who he's sitting beside now... then i got a shock... He say wanna go swimming and tanning wif me too... *hair stand*
Btw i had fun going out wif Eunice yesterday... It's been years ever since i went out wif her... Though it was kinda short, but it was enjoyable... Both of us was so tired when shopping for Godma's present... I went to her house after that and immediately i fall on the bed to sleep.. Woke up to eat and sleep again... Guess i had a deep sleep... Eunice and Clara were in the room too.. Dunno wat were they doing when i was sleeping... looking at me? *blush*
Becky=)
silence!
eunicee jotted on Thursday, October 13, 2005 @ 8:10 PM
silenced.
or rather, trying to..
talk about vicious cycles; they never do end right. at least i'm trying to reduce the minimum dips of it. AHHH the price i have to pay. i knew it would happen, and i just had to step into the centre to get sucked into the quicksand. go away, don't ever join me.
eunice*
erupt
Becky jotted on @ 3:36 PM
I went sentosa after my hotel's health screening last thurs... I met a 60+ year old aunite and she we had a really long chat... She told me that she live in queenstown and she will come to sentosa to swim alone at least every week... She did funny things too... She collected the sea water from the sea and told me that she will use the water to wash her pots and pans after cooking.. She said it can killl germs... She also said that the sea water is good for her nails and skin... She told me she like the sea in America more, she like to play wif the kids there too... I guess she's abit senile, cuz went i saw her again at the bus stop she forgot who am i and repeated what she tole me again... She dun noe the way home too... Something i really admire about her is that she still makes an effort to keep fit despite her age... She can't even walk properly but still comes sentosa to swim... I wanna be like her too when i'm old...
Something that i'm really angry about is wat i heard during my lunch time.. I was sharing table wif this 2 lady and they were talking about their husbands.. They were talking bout their friend who ia getting married... 1 of the lady said something like dunno why she can get such a good husband while pple like us that attend church dun even get to have such good husband... I was so furious! You mean you go church to get to noe your partner and get married?! I dun understand why they can say such thing?! *angry*
*fat becky
white grand pianos
eunicee jotted on Wednesday, October 12, 2005 @ 9:52 PM
let me share my love.
eunice*
you had a bad day (doesn't mean i have a bad day though)
eunicee jotted on @ 5:59 PM
i'm sitting here eating sereneandaneesa's cookie, which unfortunately is as hard as a rock (though i can't bake much better).. sigh. two no-school days have passed so fast..
sometimes you give templated answers, even when you know what's inside of you isn't the same as what you are saying. perhaps it's a coping mechanism, to help you to kill what's not good in your perspective. or maybe it's a mask! like in Regeneration, everybody in england goes around in a mask and you want to take it off, but everyone else thinks it's your face. but i think it's your wall of fear and self protection, a wall that you build up because you think it keeps you safe and sound. somethings are never meant to be known.
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
shalalalala.
so many things have changed... so many people have changed too. it's inevitable. either for the good or for the bad i don't know. God, will You show me the path soon?
eunice*
updates.
eunicee jotted on Tuesday, October 11, 2005 @ 10:38 PM
okay let me update you about what's happening so far...
janice:
got back her prelim results. perhaps ain't that good but still grateful to the Lord for blessing her soo much. studying real hard now coz there's only one more month to her A levels. keep her in ur prayers!
rebecca:
still half studying half working six days out of seven. says her life is perfect now coz she really enjoys it. really glad for her that she has found something she can enjoy totally. she's going sentosa and the swimming pool alone nowadays coz she feels fat and needs to workout. amazing =X haha! all the best becky! work hard and bring glory to God in whatever u do yeahh?
eunice:
wheee! my promos are OVER. so it's playing time! kinda wanting the results to come back..but i dread the schooling days. like CCA's coming back, PW op is nearing, and ugh. the more i think the more i dread. anw for now it's PLAYPLAYPLAY. =) thanks God for blessing and keeping me through the exams too. giving me peace in my heart, no matter how stressed or tired i may be.. thank you God!
so for now, this is what the three of us are doing. btw i think the world's ending real soon. just observe the amount of natural disasters plus governmentsgoingagainstgovernments. SO WHERE ARE YOU GOING AFTER THIS LIFE? =)
eunice*
useless studying.
eunicee jotted on Thursday, October 06, 2005 @ 5:40 PM
rants. i wonder how many of us study uselessly? stressfully swallowing what's required of you before you step inside the examination hall only to regurgitate them out, and leaving after a three hour paper, deleting all that you have studied over the past days immediately after that exams. Or, spending endless nights, weeks and months forcing out that thesis paper for your degree, perhaps compromising your sleep, health, enjoyment etc..and then yay! you get your certificate. then you will ask yourself the big question. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO AFTER THIS? HMM.
and then the hugee revelation comes to you. i want to be a housewife. or something that's TOTALLY unrelated to your years of studying. that's just stupid. you wasted all your years studying, with the stress level so high it takes away some years of your life, and all your sweat and pain. just doesn't make sense..
yess i know. perhaps only now is the right time you fulfil your calling from God. or like He's been preparing you through the many years. but still, you think back of all that stress, anxiety and EVERYTHING you have done in ur schooling years. just a waste of effort and time. almost useless (i emphasise almost.)
i think it's because of the promos i'm having now that caused this argghy feeling. bahh. i'm sleepy.
eunice*
whiteeee
eunicee jotted on Tuesday, October 04, 2005 @ 7:01 PM
you enter a room. it's white. white walls, white floor, a white table, a white chair, a white grand piano, and a white normal piano, a white cello, a white drumset, white paintings and white everything. hahaa. i like!
eunice*
sighh..
eunicee jotted on Monday, October 03, 2005 @ 10:09 PM
rain rain rain..
God is always there through the storms in our lives..
is it true that you tend to treat the people closest to you the worst? but we are suppose to treasure them the most..sigh alittlebitofpatience alittlebitoflove alittlebitofcareandconcern alittlebitofwisdom alittlebitofeverythingthatineed. perhaps that's why some say it's only when we lose our loved ones do we regret..
i like the heavy rain feeling..i always did..especially when everyone's in the house so i know neither of them is caught in the heavy rain and the breeze and comfortable feeling when i lie in bed..
they are inseparable. neither are we from God.
eunice*
