summary of the past week
eunicee jotted on Friday, January 27, 2006 @ 8:59 PM
new photos are up! sdthree #58 onwards! if you want the videos, pls ask me instead.
it's been quite some time since i've last posted.. been really busy this week, ending late and having so much to do.. but i guess j2 life is like that. oh well! not blogging has resulted has resulted in some lost thoughts over the past week so i shall try to recap what are some impt stuff that happened!
monday 23 jan
yes! one year has past.. ooh the unsayables. may the icfyfs last!
wednesday 25 jan
ughh. if you two want to bitch about people, find somewhere else. kinda made me lose whatever respect i had for him.
triangle came and returned fiftycents. ooh! ambfc fails at such close encounters. ahh!
had piano lesson while janice came to sit in! well, i can say our styles of playing is very different! how intriguing and special. may we both pass piano dip with flying colours. if i don't get a merit and above, it's wasting my $1000.
thursday 26 jan
listening to grace telling me about smiley, it makes me wonder, and perhaps hope, or maybe want. that adrenaline rush! that insatiable longing for the next day.. everything. don't want to lose control. it'll end up badd.
friday 27 jan
finallly watched memoirs of a geisha. at least it has a ohsosweet ending. and furthermore, zhangziyi is so pretty! i actually wanted to be like a geisha! but after i watched on, they have to sell their virginity. no thanks. i'll stick to wanting to be doctor then. =)
eunicesin and i used to wonder if there is a secret factory that produces pretty girls, like when you walk on the streets, you see sooo many prettyplushot girls. yes i know this sounds superficial and yes character counts blahblah.
i feel soooooo totally not a girl. like, painting nails, wearing makeup. like jiayi, serene, adelle and the rest. they are so pretty plus girly, everyone should want them. but i don't want to be bothered by these kinds of things. i actually get bored by these things. i think these shiny glittering stuff should be in tubes of paint. i'll have more fun with paint than lipglosses and eye shadows etc. i think i'll forever be so ungirl. that's fine with me though..
i caught her. she sneeks peeks at him. she screams for his attention. she's attention seeking you. will you give in to her possessiveness and will you satisfy her attention seeking? will you? will you!
i finally tasted the nostalgic feeling of.. it. i don't know how to describe it. but i sure don't like the feeling of it. that perhaps leads on to the next point..
other random thoughts which i had:
i still don't know if it's good or if it's bad, to be dependent on someone else emotionally that is. there're so many things that have no clear cut choices it's rather mindboggling and heart-confusioning.
the more difficult thing than to hold on, is to let go.
that makes it all the more worse.
God's been telling me to love my enemies, to forgive. for two weeks? almost there. i've been trying, really. but sometimes, they're just soo pissy it's inevitable. of course, rely on His strength. love is the greatest. also my weakest.
eunicee*
