once again.
eunicee jotted on Saturday, November 12, 2005 @ 11:34 PM
once again i look upon the cross where You died
i'm humbled by Your mercy and i'm broken inside
once again i thank You
once again i pour out my life.
it has been a rollercoaster ride. i don't want to be like Y* again. even tho i think i am x_x we all struggle with certain things in our lives. and it's in those weaknesses that God's power is made perfect. it's so hard to learn, isn't it?
*names have been changed to protect privacy. wahahaha.
i've been pondering alot the past few days. what should i do, what does God want. and about the things around me, the people, situations, my capabilities and the future. i've got this nudging feeling that maybe i shld do it that way. and some little resistance i've put up. doubts, my own will etc. i'm getting so tired, i'm getting so tired. i'm weak but God is strong. i find myself pleading with God about so many things. for my own stuff, for my friends, for God to show, for God to work. and out of these sometimes, i feel some part of what God feels. sometimes it's just a blank. like i'm crying out to void emptiness. and that is what i feel like now. emptiness. i'm still going to search.
oh yeahh i read an interesting bit in Time. this guy had ELEVEN personalities in him. they say negative experiences can cause a new personality. somewhat a coping mechanism.
Jesus Christ i think about Your sacrifice.
You became nothing, poured out to death.
Many times i've wondered at Your gift of life
and i'm in that place once again.
yes the song's Once Again. once again for everything.
eunicee*
