eunicee jotted on Tuesday, December 18, 2007 @ 9:50 PM
when you lose someone.
furthermore, your mum at a young age.
it's inexpressible, the grief and the torment of the mind - of the utmost wails and cries. and the times when you're deafening-ly silent, great sorrow and excruciating pain creep in, only to slam you hard with rapid recollections, extreme emotions, and tears that well up in your eyes. of lost hope, of great emptiness and an insatiable longing.
and when you climb up the stairs of the overhead bridge and reach the top where a long path lies ahead to the other side of the road, you almost collapse physically and internally. but something's pushing you from behind, like how someone pushes you when u run/jog/walk/stroll during cross country. and you struggle so hard to take each step, like as if asthma's gotten you and your tear gland is malfunctioning,
and you desperately cry, God grant me strength to walk this road!
badly shaken and overflowing with anguish, you put out your foot to step into the trench of mud, only to wonder what happens next and when will you be fine again.
this is when the strong breaks into a insubstantial mass of i-don't-know-what, in this moment of agony and desolation, bereft of any ounce of strength to even breathe anymore. literally.
and these words mentioned above fail badly to capture anything felt by you.
i hope they're fine.
