piano exam..
eunicee jotted on Wednesday, September 07, 2005 @ 10:58 PM
hello! i decided to blog abit..since today is an eventful day...
i received my piano exam results, yes i failed..ain't too happy about that but what can i do about it right? hmm...so i decided to take again next year..but i can't stand the feeling of waiting outside the examiner's room and waiting for that high pitch ringing bell (like those during christmas) to signal me to enter..then sit at the piano and play my pieces, slipping at running notes and pressing wrong chords at the crucial moments..and stare in horror at the sight reading piece and coming out of the room knowing it wasn't really good..and then waiting for the results and only to see the sms "bad news. you didn't make it thru dip." yeahh i'm sad about it..still am and will be..and i'm sure there's this fear in me the next time i take the exam..(but i like the feeling of performing to the examiner! like performing to someone who can take my heavy tone and not complain verbally but okay he failed me in the end yes.) i know the fear will come..coz i feel it already..
well, i know no one will know how bad i feel (except God) and how much passing this exam will be to me, perhaps due to my own expectations of myself which is rather high (quite surprisingly crystal found out), and how i hate to disappoint ms chong and my parents (anw who likes disappointments right?), but then again i should be fine by tonight!
anw i just want to thank all my friends for being there! (okay let me sound bimbo just for now) and all the encouragement and yessss i'll take it again! i'll practice hard i promise! and i'll pass the exam this time round..
thank you God too for everything!
okay anyone who reads this pls don't come talking abt my piano exam thanks.
wheeeee i'll still continue loving the piano and my music! (i'm actually beginning to like soler's sonata x_x ) and one day i'll get my white grand piano..
oh and i hope nothing irritates me tonight..
my white grand piano..
but it's only a dream..i know i can never have a white grand piano in this life..becoz firstly i won't have the money and also i would rather spend the money to set up my orphanage..sigh do u think there're white grand pianos in heaven?
eunice*
