sigh..
eunicee jotted on Thursday, September 15, 2005 @ 9:43 PM
yes, the first week of school term is almost over! it's just nine more weeks..sighh seems such a long time..
i think i'm slowly getting totally against infatuation and crush and whatnots..but then again, the vacuum stings..
sometimes you hold on so tightly to something you shldn't, and then comes along the wave of reality which then removes that anchor you've sunk so deep into your soul and yes it does hurt..and you cry for help and then you tell yourself, yes! i'm ohsomuchstronger now! but then again, you trip and you fall into that quicksand. and so the vicious cycle begins...
sometimes you scream why and how and what, but they never get answered; and you whine that you want it to pass but soon you regret and long for the past..
sometimes you point and criticise, and say "ohihatepplewhobitchandwhoflirtandwhojust seekattention" but you want to be popular, you whine to them, you slide up close and lift your veil to show what you aren't supposed to, you are jealous, and oh yes you flirt, you seek attention, you do whatever you told them you hated..
sometimes the more you hide, the more they find. the more you want, the more it flees. the more you close up, the more it opens in.
it'll all come around in a cycle called Contradiction.
eunice*
